My arms are kind of sore. Hopefully I'll gain enough muscle by the end of this week, here's to hoping. I CAN DO A PUSH-UP, I SWEAR. /EYE OF THE TIGER

Can anyone else do push-ups? How do you improve the strength in your arms/abdomen to do more of them? I can do about two of them before passing out. It's a lot better than before where I could barely hold myself up in a formal sit-up stance. I'm always in need of improvement!

How did Magnus get so bloated and fat? ;A; He needs to go back to this:

So I had this dream where I was in the Philippines with my extended family. We were in a buffet restaurant and I was sitting right across from my cousin. Then our Aunt Luming comes to our table and fawns over my cousin, completely ignoring me. And I was... strangely, not bothered by it at all. Like it was beneath me to even be jealous. Not everyone is going to like you.

As I turn my head to observe my surroundings, I see an odd looking boy staring right at me. He had a blank expression on his face but it looked like he wanted to say hello.



So I waved at him and he awkwardly waved back and turned his head away, shyly looking down at his table. It was kind of cute? I've always had a soft spot for girly men. IT'S NOT MY FAULT.

I find it strangely symbolic because no matter how many Hetalia character quizzes I take, I am always associated with Japan.

I'm such a loser because of this dream, LOL.

THANK YOU, FLIST♥!

➲ Thank you for being there to support me when my confidence goes down. And for commenting on my corny, emo posts to remind me that I'm never alone with my troubles.

➲ Thank you for sticking up for me even when I'm totally in the wrong, and for not hesitating to insult my enemies because you want me to feel better about myself. ): ♥

➲ Thank you for commenting on my posts when I'm so horrible at keeping up with my flist. It means a lot to know that people out there find my posts interesting enough to follow. :)

➲ Thank you for making me feel significant. And thank you for not being judgmental about my personal choices and decisions.

➲ Thank you for being honest with me when I'm too blinded with emotions to think clearly.

➲ Thank you for bringing me back down to earth when I'm far up in the clouds. :)

➲ Overall, thank you for being a friend. ♥

Stay cool, my awesome flist.

Icon post.

Mother woke me up early this morning just to eat Thanksgiving dinner. EVEN THOUGH I WANTED TO FUCKING SLEEP IN. Anyway. We had turkey, rice, mashed potatoes, potato salad and yams. It was delicious. I've never eaten turkey before but it was actually really good. Nobody made thanksgiving dessert but I wouldn't have eaten excess foods anyway, rofl. I'm like 5'6 and 150lbs right now, so it's not really that bad but I don't want to overdo it.

Feeling really tired right now from mentally bullying myself. I hate it when there's one little thing that bothers me and I can't seem to NOT center my head around it until the problem is solved. I feel like a failure. I don't want to cry, but if it'll help me feel better then why not. I hate being passively bullied by people just because I'm virtually a doormat. Unless you do something incredibly atrocious; it won't happen unless you break my threshold.

Random, we have a new pet. A black fuzzy caterpillar; it looks like this. It's been camping out on the walls of our front porch. Luckily, the dog hasn't messed with it. I'm kind of intrigued that it's been surviving the cold weather. Mom started freaking out when I told her, she said I should have killed it. Lol, no bitch. It's just chilling outside, in nature... you do not kill bugs outside of the house. See, she has this phobia of worms and all things armless and slithery... and I sort of inherited that phobia. But I'm working my way out of it, not only because worms are perfectly harmless but I happen to hate sharing a common trait with my own mother.

Of course she'll never have my innate talent of theatrics.

~WE DIDN'T START THE FAIYA~
~IT WAS ALWAYS BURNING SINCE THE WORLD'S BEEN TURNING~
~NO WE DIDN'T START THE FAIYA~
~NO WE DIDN'T LIGHT IT BUT WE TRIED TO FIGHT IT~

When I reach 30 I will make my own faghag pop band.

Okay, so I've never played/watched Sengoku Basara before, but the fan-art was too pretty not to make icons out of. (I kind of have a soft spot for the eye-patched brunet.) So expect an upcoming batch at krigsskibe soon!

Songs stuck in my head:
Ménage à Trois - Alcazar: I've been a fan of Alcazar for a long time now, but I've only recently found out that Andreas and Magnus (the two bellboys) were in a relationship together. I knew they were both openly gay, but not with eachother. Shocking! They made such a cute couple, too. If only Magnus hadn't left Alcazar. ):
Start The Fire - Alcazar: Yes, yes you did start the fire. In my pants. Sexually provocative firefighters? Yes please. I love my hot gays. ♥
This Is The World We Live In - Alcazar: ~THIS IS THE WORLD WE LIVE IN~ ~AND THESE ARE HANDS WE'RE GIVEN~ ♫

That's it, we all need some gay in our lives. Or in this case, Swedish euro-dance pop!

Starting over with this journal. I just felt like doing this:

ONE

- Make a post to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fun ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
- If you wish for real possible things, make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.
- Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ so that the holiday joy will spread.

TWO

- Surf around your friends list to see who has posted their list.
- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure.
- You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf: to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not; it's your call.

( This has to be the hardest meme I've ever done. )

On an unrelated note, there's some virgin who married a video game character. I don't think I'd ever be that desperate myself, but if I had to marry a video game character then I'd probably choose Pyramid Head. :) Hit it, baby.

If you noticed, I've decided to make my posts public from now on. I don't really know why, but I just felt like it! So, that's all I have to say about that. Lame, huh? Anyway! What does everyone have planned for tomorrow?